I think Kaleia is a little older then Luke in this shot, but pretty close.
As I was going thru old pics I found myself thinking how different of a mother I am now then I was the first time around. Life, kids, jobs, school, all these factors are so different now it has totally changed how I mother and who I am. Not sure it is for the better. I remember reading to Lei for hours and doing all these exercises to get her to sit, crawl, and walk sooner. Now I am thinking, "please don't crawl Luke I am not ready for you to be mobile. Do not start to scoot Luke or I am going to push you over." I can count on my fingers how many times I have sat and read to Luke (that is sad to admit). I was counting down to the time I could feed Kaleia something new, go do something new, show her something new; now I am kinda am like whatever. It happens when it happens. But as such I can see how much further Lei was at this age, not that Luke is behind but that Lei was so FAR ahead of the game. That girl KNEW every letter of the alphabet and could recognize her name before the age of 2. And now she knows all the sounds and some words. Not sure I will be able to spend an hour each day outside with chalk going over letters with Luke. Don't see myself walking circles around the pool holding his hands while he learns to walk multiple times a day. You just can't have that much focus one child when you have two. I am beginning to see why first borns are such over achievers. They are PUSHED from day one. Not sure if I am better mom now (I have always thought I was a better mom of one) but one thing I do know for sure--both my kids are LOVED and feel LOVED, and I am doing the best I can. They are growing up in a home with two happy parents who love each other and really that is all that matters. So when I loose my patience over something stupid, over react, yell, make the situation worse do to laziness, I will recall all the good things I do. I do play on the floor with my kids a lot, I do surprise myself with on heard of patience once in awhile, and I have finally accepted that poop does sometimes happen in the bath.
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Hi Stacy! I am looking forward to getting to know you better. I like your posts-so real! take Care and keep up the good work being a good Mommy.
Hey, Stace, don't feel bad. I'm willing to bet in many ways you are a better mother now that inexperience is not a factor. And Luke will learn so much just by having a big sister that anything he doesn't know by the time he's 2 will more than be made up for later on. StinkyMan knows so much just based on what he sees Curly doing and learning...the other day he was doing her homework! And don't forget that you really can't compare boys and girls. They learn so differently. It's really true. You are a great mom. I can see that every time I talk with Lei or hang out with you guys. You and Jordan are doing a great job.
Luke is getting so big, and soooo cute. He and K don't look alike to me, but they are equally adorable. :)
Oh my gosh he's so big! I can't believe it! I worry sometimes that I need to be a better mom. I think that's good though. It shows we care enough to worry if we suck or not. :)
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